The Always Insightful Insights of Trent Hergenrader

Foiled! & More Counting

Filed under: * Footie, -Pickup, Writing — Trent @ 1:15 pm


Gah! The indoor facility is closed today meaning no more footie for me in 2007. The numbers you’ve all been waiting for:

Month
# of Sessions
Average (out of 5)
Oct
3
2.67
Nov
8
3.19
Dec
6
3.25

Monday average = 2.9 Total Sessions Available = 27
Wednesday average = 3.06 Sessions Attended = 17
Friday average = 3.25 Sessions Remaining Before Breaking Even = 8

Additional Notes
* I’ve avoided catastrophic injury thus far but I can’t outrace Father Time. I need to get my right knee checked out because something is just not right with it.

* 8 more sessions before April should be a breeze so it looks like a wise financial decision to have paid the seasonal fee ($125) rather than $6 per session.


I finished the year having sent 51 stories into the wild between January and December 2007, with 12 still out in the field. This is a record for number of stories shipped, but for all that there was still only a single sale to Black Static. I also received a rewrite request which I’ve resubmitted and have high hopes for, but I guess I won’t be getting news on that one until 2008.

Numbers are deceiving. I wrote fewer short stories in 2007 than in past years, so the submission number is inflated by me having a greater inventory. Also in 2007, I started making a concerted effort to send more stories to literary markets as I try to broaden my bibliography outside the f/sf world.

Most importantly, I finished the first draft of my first novel this summer. It needs work but I’m especially pleased with learning about the process—the output, the effort, the end product. Short stories sales are fine, but selling a novel would be something else entirely.

Overall, despite only having the single sale, I have to say this was a successful year for my writing. Grad school has really made me change the way I view my writing and I am quite pleased with the stuff I’m producing, even if it’s not selling in the f/sf markets. I’m far more comfortable writing what I want without worrying about sales than I was two years ago. I view that as a good thing.


Last post for 2007! Have a happy and safe New Year’s Eve!

Current Mood: Pretty Good |

Out of Order? and Counting

Filed under: General, Reading, Travel, Writing — Trent @ 5:15 pm


Home safely from our trip to South Carolina, delayed two hours due to weather in the Midwest. All in all, not bad considering we flew through O’Hare. A lovely trip overall though. Pictures likely to follow.


To my extreme annoyance, my copy of Cormac McCarthy’s The Crossing has pages out of order—it skips from 201 to 210 and then goes back and forth for about 30 pages. I can exchange it, but I’ve already made notes in the margins, underlined stuff. (sigh) The good news is that it’s terrific and I can’t wait to read the second half. The bad news is that I don’t think I’ll be able to polish it off before Tuesday, bringing my list of books read in 2007 to a screeching halt at 64.

I’d be willing to bet that 64 marks the most books I’ve ever read in a year. That number includes tomes like Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell, Ulysses and all but one of China Miéville’s brick-thick novels, as well as pamphlet-length books like Walking the Nez Road and Tortilla Flat. Of course, a lot of these books were on audio, but I count them as being “read.” Maybe you think that’s cheating. Maybe I don’t care.

I don’t put a lot of stock in sheer numbers. I have read thrillers by John Grisham and Dan Brown in a couple days, but I wouldn’t want to plow through 200 of them just to inflate the numbers. I will remember 2007 as the year I was introduced to China Miéville, Philip K. Dick, and Cormac McCarthy—all writers whom I greatly admire. I also polished off a lot of Hemingway that was new to me and that I enjoyed. Overall, it was a very good year for reading, especially for science fiction.

I’m betting 2008 will feature a lot more mainstream American literature. I recently received the reading list for my contemporary Native American novel course and I’m really excited for it. I also want to spend some time reading more McCarthy (I hope to finish the Border Trilogy before heading back to school mid-January) and whip up a self-made reading list of Latin American literature and magic realism—which are two separate things, you know.

I don’t feel any need to match or top 64 books next year but if I can read as much great stuff as I did in 2007, I’ll be a happy boy.


However, I did get an Xbox 360 for Christmas and have been playing Marvel’s Ultimate Alliance which came with the bundle. I didn’t think at first I would like it since it seemed like a sexier version of Gauntlet. Then I figured out how to use the characters special superpowers, how to switch between characters, and otherwise read the instructions. For a guy who read a lot of Marvel comics growing up, this game borders on pornography.

Once I buy a couple more games—like FIFA 08, Halo 3, and The Orange Box—I expect to flush school, reading, and writing down the toilet.


Speaking of school, I ended up getting an A in my poetry class. All that fretting for nothing.

Current Mood: Happy |

Good News and Good Reads

Filed under: * Footie, - England/EPL, General, Reading, Travel — Trent @ 12:13 pm


Things are going well on vacation. A quick look at us at high tea at the Biltmore:
High tea


Boxing Day is always one of the biggest days in the footballing calendar and, from where I’m sitting, it could hardly have gone much better. Spurs with a 5-1 thumping of Fulham (didn’t realize Dempsey was Fulham’s leading scorer with 8—good news if they go down as he might get picked up elsewhere) and Man Ure took over top spot from the Ars*. Not that I have any love for United but I’m strictly A.B.A. (Anybody But Ars*) when it comes to title challenges. The ‘Pool won too, with my fav Nando Torres netting, and Fat Sam’s Newcastle lost to Wigan. Hilarious. Good day all ’round.


This will surely take up more space in the coming days, but I scoured South Carolina before finally ferreting out a copy of Cormac McCarthy’s The Crossing. I liked All the Pretty Horses quite a bit; I love The Crossing, of which I’m one-quarter through. The novel is about a boy and a wolf. But it’s also about the past and modernity. And nature and religion. And Mexico and the US and indigenous peoples. Did I mention it was fantastic?

There are animal people and people people. I’m an animal person. I’d rather see Will Smith die in I Am Legend than the German Shepherd. Yes, I eat meat and wear leather and would have no problem killing and eating a chicken if I knew how and was hungry enough. I don’t know if a person can commune with a chicken or a fish. I think not. I know we can commune with dogs, who are of course descendants of wolves. So McCarthy’s preaching to a very much converted choir here.

And what I especially like is that the animals stay animals. In All the Pretty Horses, the horses don’t need to become anthropomorphized and in The Crossing, neither does the wolf; it’s the human that needs to go to some non-human space in order to open up the pathway for communication. McCarthy levels a lot of assumptions, including the assumption that reason trumps instinct. It may conquer instinct, but that doesn’t mean it’s necessarily better. Interesting stuff.

Current Mood: Pensive |

Lemmie & the PKD

Filed under: Reading — Trent @ 6:34 pm


I cranked through Stanislaw Lem’s Solaris in a 24-hour period—ah, the benefits of vacation.

I liked the book quite a bit, though it has a serious gender bias. The men all stand for the serious, rational, scientific; the women represent the wiggy, emotional, exotic. Part of Solaris, at least in my reading, is deconstructing these categories but there’s an essentialist feel to the portrayal of the sexes that makes the book feel a bit dated. If you had to boil Solaris down to a single word (not that you would ever have to, but still), that word would be “unknowability.” In short, scientists from Earth discover a planet that’s inhabited by a single lifeform in the shape of a sentient ocean, and it’s a lifeform that scientists just cannot ever come to understand. The question seems to be, “Could humans ever come to grips with something truly alien?” and the answer seems to be, “No.”

There’s also a constant questioning of reality, i.e. what’s real and what’s a dream. In that sense it’s quite a bit like Philip K. Dick’s work in that it interrogates matters of identity, perspective, the nature of truth, and other fun stuff. And maybe it’s a preconcieved bias, but the book felt very un-American to me. Lem was a Pole and wrote the book in French, so that might have something to do with it, but considering it was first published in 1961 it seems pretty far ahead of its time.

Anyway, definitely a book worth its reputation. I put requests for the film versions by Tarkovsky and Soderberg in Amy’s Netflix queue. If I’m a good boy for the rest of vacation, I might get bumped up the list.

Current Mood: Not All There |
Currently Listening To - The Beatles - “Rubber Soul”

Safely in Aiken (and Achin’)

Filed under: * Footie, - England/EPL, Reading, Travel — Trent @ 12:25 pm


We arrived safely in Aiken last night after spending a day in Greenville, NC and touring the Biltmore estate (read “American castle”). Like with castles and cathedrals in Europe, you start to think that if you’ve seen one, you’ve seen ‘em all. I have to say that the Biltmore impressed me nonetheless, just on the sheer size of the thing and the fact that it’s like a European palace, only newer.

We spend a couple days in Aiken then move to Savannah for a day, then back to Aiken, then home.


I’ve made a bad (and painful) discovery—I was hooked on ibuprofen. My stomach started getting upset from taking too much too often, but I thought the timing wasn’t so bad since I won’t be playing footie for another week or so. As I’ve come off my steady diet of Advil, aches and pains have slowly creeped back into my life, mostly in my ankles and my bum knee. It’s amazing how much niggling pain the ibuprofen has been masking, and I’m not quite sure what to do about it since Tylenol does next to nothing and the Advil’s still making my stomach upset. Not best pleased about this.


I read a couple critical articles on Blood Meridian on the flight down to South Carolina. My advisor recommended one by Dana Phillips entitled “History and the Ugly Facts of Blood Meridian” and boy, was it fantastic. A really good argument that makes me want to read the book again with his central ideas in mind.

The other was “Genre and Geographies of Violence” by Susan Kollin, which I had found a lot to disagree with regarding the novel. Kollin made some really interesting points about All the Pretty Horses though, and made me really excited to read The Crossing, which sounds fantastic.

I had a list of shortish sci-fi books I wanted to crank through during the break. I think my compulsion is going to mean that I jettison them all in favor of more McCarthy. So it goes.


No footie on the tube here, but I saw with some dismay that Spurs lost to the Ars* 2-1 away. Not that this is surprising, but by all accounts they should have at least drawn. Spurs have a mental block when it comes to their greatest rivals, and you can’t be missing penalties in games like these. You just can’t. Or you lose.

Current Mood: Satisfecho |

Traveling

Filed under: School, Travel — Trent @ 11:16 am


We’ll be traveling for the next couple days, so don’t expect any posts until we arrive back at Chez Hergenrader in Aiken, SC. Hopefully with pictures.

I’m sure you will survive.


School is over for me for the semester. I am happy about this.

Current Mood: Tired |

So Very Close and Thoughts on Reading Tastes

Filed under: Reading, School — Trent @ 6:49 pm


So very close to being done for the semester and a sweet, sweet five-week break. My only standing obligation is my “Drugs in Dystopian California” paper. It needs to be ten pages and it currently stands at 6.25, meaning it should be done tonight.


My final judgment on James Joyce: grudging admiration. As much as I found Dubliners and Portrait a bit dull and Ulysses more frustrating than enlightening, I have no doubt that Joyce knew exactly what he was doing. I went to a Picasso museum in Barcelona that showed his progression as artist—he went from very accomplished realist to all the weird, tripped out cubist and surrealist stuff. The point was that he didn’t deviate from the norm because he had a lack of talent, but rather because he had an abundance of it.

The same can be said for Joyce. Writing my paper on Dubliners, I grew to appreciate his technical mastery—the paper showed how he trapped his characters in the text (introducing them mid-sentence, not introducing them for paragraphs, having the names of secondary characters dominating the story, etc.) as a way to show them being trapped by the social pressures and anxieties of the day. Stylistically these are very plain stories, but I read a wide range of interpretations of them, both individually and as a collection. Interesting stuff, even if I can’t say I enjoyed reading it.

Ulysses is a different beast entirely. Our professor said you can’t read Ulysses once because it makes very little sense; it was written to be reread. To me, frustration outweighed my interest, especially as Joyce intentionally wrote nearly unreadable chapters, i.e. at the end of the long day the men are tired, so the chapter is long-winded and tiring to read. Great. Yet, as much as I hate to say it, part of me wants to start Ulysses over from the beginning now that I know what to expect.

The book is also a brick, and Joyce provides a billion little details. My great personal revelation while reading Ulysses is that each of these details either mean something, or they don’t; it’s up to the reader to make connections, patch pieces together to make a coherent argument about what something “means” even though such an argument is bound to be riddled with holes. The fact that there might be meaning in something reminds me an awful lot of how life works. Each person has a world view and as you observe things happening, they either fit into your world view or they don’t. Things that have no meaning for you may have meaning for someone else. So in that way, Ulysses is stunningly original. It really is on the level of Shakespeare in terms of the sheer number of interpretations it can support.

Anyway, this revelation comes at a time when I’ve been getting into Cormac McCarthy. Reading “reviews” on Amazon is something I love to do because I HATE IT SO MUCH. The two biggest camps are: 1) Cormac McCarthy is a genius and the best living American author, or 2) Don’t believe the hype, his stuff is unreadable and the only people that like it are constipated academics who lie. (For the record, I fall into that first category and resemble the second.)

What drives me crazy is this underlying assumption that “good writing” ought to equal “accessible writing” when in fact they have nothing to do with each other. First off, “accessible” is a quality only each reader can decide for him/herself. Personally, I think too many readers refuse to get in the writer’s rhythm. Greek classics and Icelandic Sagas don’t feel like modern stories because… erm, they’re not. But if you take some time, you fall into the rhythm of that work and it’s smooth sailing. (As a matter of fact, this was my experience with Mr. McCarthy.)

Second, a lot of good books don’t go in one direction. I don’t read many mainstream best sellers, but typically there’s a fairly straightforward plot. I don’t mean it doesn’t have twists and turns a la The DaVinci Code, but rather what events took place and how they occurred is fairly straightforward. This does not describe, say, Ulysses. Or Blood Meridian for that matter. If you finish a book, set it aside, think a minute, then pick it back up and read the last couple pages over to see if you missed The Meaning in that last chapter, that’s a sign the book is complicated. And really great books give you a sense that there’s Meaning in there somewhere, you just have to back and look for it. I suspect this makes some people feel dumb and therefore angry.

Third, you cannot judge a book based on your own view of morality. The works of Cormac McCarthy do not end gently. The world is fairly brutal and unjust, and the characters try (and often fail) to make sense of the brutality and injustice. If you don’t think the world works this way (often because of a belief in a just God), this does not necessarily mean the book is pointless, nihilistic, or needlessly depressing. The same goes if you just don’t like to think about those kinds of things.

Anyway, this whole thing reminds me of a time years ago when went out to eat at a Spanish restaurant in Chicago with one of Amy’s (ahem) less cultured friends from high school. She and I happened to get the same glass of dry red wine, which I quite enjoyed. She, however, thought it “sucked” because it was too dry and promptly put a couple ice cubes in it to water it down. I also suspect she thought I was being snooty because I claimed to like it just the way it was.

That is all.

Current Mood: Almost…Done |
Currently Listening To - Joe Strummer & the Mescaleros - “Streetcore”

Footie - Session 17

Filed under: * Footie, -Pickup — Trent @ 3:35 pm

Recap: A good day with about 28 guys, meaning two games with each team having one sub. I was on a field with an older demographic and I was on the faster, younger, better team.

Health Report: Good, except that I think a constant diet of ibuprofen has made me a bit queasy. I went off it this weekend and holy cow, am I sore.

Performance: Really pretty good. I’ve figured out that foot speed makes a huge difference on the ball. When I’m playing against younger (or even the same age) guys, I’m not so good. Against guys ten to fifteen years my senior, my feet are considerably quicker. I also had guys making good runs, so I was able to zip some good passes around.

Rating: — It’s my last outing for awhile since we head to South Carolina on vacation Wednesday. I’m in the giving mood, so I’ll grant myself a four-star performance even though I probably don’t completely deserve it. Today marked my 17th (!) outing, meaning I only need eight more sessions before I break even for the seasonal pass. I’m guessing I should hit that by the end of January or early February, meaning the remaining months are all gravy.

Quotes

Filed under: Reading, School — Trent @ 4:24 pm


I sent the below in an email to one of my friends in my Joyce class and thought I should post it here too:

“I’ve put in so many enigmas and puzzles that it will keep the professors busy for centuries arguing over what I meant.”
–James Joyce

“I’ve put in so many unintentional enigmas and puzzles in my Joyce paper that it will keep the professor busy for hours trying to figure our what I meant.”
–Trent Hergenrader


I’m woefully behind in my independent study paper (read as “haven’t started yet and still doing research”) which has been narrowed down once again. “California as Utopia” was a good handle to put together a reading list but it’s more of a dissertation-sized question, so I’m focusing only on drug use in Butler’s Parable novels, The Gold Coast, and in the work of Philip K Dick, mostly A Scanner Darkly.

I’ve been zipping through Divine Invasions: A Life of Philip K Dick, The Shifting Realities of Philip K. Dick, What If Our World Is Their Heaven? The Final Conversations Of Philip K. Dick, and Philip K. Dick: In His Own Words. All of them are fascinating. I plan on reading them more slowly when time permits.

Which will be sometimes in 2023.

Current Mood: Overworked |
Currently Listening To - Bob Dylan - “Ten of Swords (Disc 7)”

Footie - Session 16

Filed under: * Footie, -Pickup, General — Trent @ 7:58 pm

Recap: Thankfully not an overload of players—about 30-35 for most of the day which meant two full games with subs, but not too many subs. One field was more competitive but it wasn’t mine; I was on the better team of the somewhat clumsier game.

Health Report: Fine, but I need to arrive earlier to make time for stretching.

Performance: Fine. Some nice passing and I’m not half-bad on the ball when I’m playing against newbies and guys fifteen years older than me. I scored on three, long-range pile drivers, which made me silly with joy because normally I put these in the rafters.

Rating: — I was a little annoyed because some of the better players on our field slowly migrated to the other field, meaning we had fewer subs in our game and they had more. To each their own I guess, but I preferred to stay on the field longer in the lower quality game rather than defecting and having to wait longer to play. But whatever. Our game was good enough and I got a good workout, which is the only real reason to play anyway.

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